Monday, May 17, 2010

Mia, You make me smile.

This girl simply cracks me up! She is beginning to get her little personality and isn't afraid to let it shine. She doesn't get into mischeif much but she sure knows what she wants. She has spunk and that is what I love about her. She has quite a few friends that she really gets along with and a few not so well. Two year olds are so hard to teach how to share. They are just trying to learn and it is so hard to teach them without causing conflict.
Mia has quite the vocabulary and I love to hear her say things like "sit right here" or "not now" or "coke peese" or "this is MINE" or "can I go night night". I love that she calls horses "ha has" and birds "ca cas". I love to see what she has learned so I ask for random things like "will you please get me the broom" (she brings me the broom), "will you please bring me mommys makeup" (she brings me the makeup).
I look forward to spending times with her. I need to learn to enjoy the "two year old" moments instead of dread them and get annoyed by them. This is the end for us, she is our caboose so I need to remind myself of that often. I need to enjoy the fact that she wants to sit on my lap whenever I sit down. I need to put stuff aside and cuddle a little longer, laugh with her a little longer, read to her more often. She is a sponge, I need to help her soak it all up. The world is ready and waiting for her to explore it.
I love that she is a daddys girl. I think every daddy needs one. She has him wrapped around his fingers and noone can remove her. She loves it when he comes home from work (so do I) :) She has to call him a couple times during the day and I am so glad that he takes her calls. It is only for a second but she has to know that he is around. It is so cute.

She loved sitting in her carseat all day today in the living room.
I caught her eating cookie dough out of the Papa Murphys container!
Who did she learn that from? HER DAD!!
Don't you just love her hair? She twists her hair around her finger all day. She doesn't have much hair and she won't leave anything in it, so she pretty much looks like this everyday! :)

Friday, May 14, 2010

Hilary Weeks Ultimate Mom "To Do" List Song

Isn't this the truth? I have seen her several times in concert and this song makes me laugh each time. Expains the hum drum I have been feeling to a T! We could be friends....I know it!

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Wo is Me

February? Really? That is the last time I blogged? That is so crazy and so unlike me. Well, a lot has been unlike me lately. I have had a serious case of the Wo is me. I am not one that likes to whine, or feel sad. But lately, I have had a really hard time being happy with myself. Do any of you just ever sit back and compare yourselves to other people, or compare your blog to other peoples blog, or compare the amount of meals so and so cooks for their family. Or how come she can do that craft, or she can shop that well, or her kids listen, or her house is always clean, or she takes her kids to the park everyday, or they can go on vacations wherever they want.
Well, I have been beating myself up over this since February. I haven't been myself. I feel like I don't fit in where I once did. I feel like I am a maid, chef, therapist, referee, etc....and I have lost my identity. There are days where I think maybe my Heavenly Father made a mistake making me a mom. Sometimes I think I would be better off with a house full of cats...and I am allergic to cats! I haven't been a good friend to those I love the most, mainly because they are the ones I compare myself to the most. Then when you don't succeed like they do, you feel inadequate to be in their presence. I use to be crafty, I used to LOVE to blog, I use to LOVE taking my kids to the park. How can a happy person feel these feelings I feel? I have gotten so wrapped up in being the "perfect" housewife, mom, neighbor, PTO vice president, church member, friend...that I have lost who I really am. I want to BE ME, I want to DRESS how I want, I want to be happy, I want to feel like I won't be judged for things I choose to do.
I am blessed with the GREATEST husband. He has been so patient with me because really this is all stupid crap that is so superficial and lame. He supports ALL my decisions and is there when the chips fall. I love him so much and wish that even his own dad would know of his greatness. He has overcome so much in his life and I want him to know I am SO blessed to be with him forever. He is the light of my life. I am blessed with three great kids that I love and adore. I hope they know how much I truly love them.
So, hopefully I can snap out of this and come back to blogging and show that I too have talent....