Saturday, September 11, 2010

I HATE Cancer



My families life was turned upside down in the beginning of July. I had just recovered from a nasty wisdom tooth surgery and got a phone call that I will never forget. My brother had been admitted to the hospital with a ruptured colon and had been told that he has Colon cancer. I went up to Salt Lake and spent a week with him and family and waited for results to come back after his surgery. We waited and waited and waited. Watched fireworks for the the 4th of July from his hospital window. Watched the parade from that same window. We laughed, we cried, we worried, and we above all prayed. Several people came and visited him. It was a constant flow of people that it got to the point that they had to turn people away just so he could get some rest.

Well, I had to return home without any results, because of the holiday weekend pathology was behind. I got the phone call the day after I got back (of course) that it was indeed colon cancer and has spread to his liver. I have never felt so angry and sad all at the same time. I really wanted to punch somebody or something. This couldn't be happening to MY brother, my ONLY sibling. It seemed like I was having a nightmare I just couldn't wake up from.

He hasn't started chemo yet because he needs to fully recover from the nasty surgery that he underwent. He looks so much better now than the day he did before going into surgery. We spent last weekend with him and his adorable family. We are all anxiously awaiting the chemo and radiation to start so he can FIGHT this fight and kick it in the ...... (ok I will keep it clean but know I am thinking another word) butt. I love Tony so much and can't even begin to imagine what he is feeling inside. What him and his awesome wife, Jen, think and talk about. I just want to push the "stop" button and make it all stop. I pray and pray and pray more than I ever have. I am scared more than I have ever been. Feelings that have never been felt, fears that we never thought we would ever face. Positive thinking will get him far so that is what we need to do for him and for us. He is my hero and I know that he has what it takes to win.
Thanks for your endless prayers.

Monday, July 26, 2010

Sunday, July 11, 2010

BayLees Baptism

This weekend was a special one. BayLee was able to be Baptized and Confirmed a member of the Church Of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. What a special day it was! She looked so beautiful in her white dress and Adam was so excited to Baptize his little girl. She had a lot of family and friends there to share in her big day.
I am so proud of her decision to get Baptized and she was super giggly and giddy as we were getting her out of her baptism clothes. She had a glow about her that was so apparent and true. I love you BayLee and am so happy for you.




I love this picture. She was a little nervous and Adam was giving her
a little talk to calm her.
Moments like those we had today are what makes life so worth it.

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Sunday, June 6, 2010

Swimming Fun

Well, Summer has finally hit us and I wish it were still Spring. We jumped from the 80's to 107! What a jump! But because of this we have busted out the swim suits and have begun to play in the water. We had so much fun today hanging out on our patio with the water misters getting us cooled off. We have cut down our TV time DRASTICALLY and have been enjoying our yard and eachother. Mia got DARLING swimsuits from some friends of ours and LOVES to hang out in her little pool. I must say she is the cutest swimmer around!



This is my FAV picture!
What a cute poser!


Drip Dry!
BRRRRRRR.......

Monday, May 17, 2010

Mia, You make me smile.

This girl simply cracks me up! She is beginning to get her little personality and isn't afraid to let it shine. She doesn't get into mischeif much but she sure knows what she wants. She has spunk and that is what I love about her. She has quite a few friends that she really gets along with and a few not so well. Two year olds are so hard to teach how to share. They are just trying to learn and it is so hard to teach them without causing conflict.
Mia has quite the vocabulary and I love to hear her say things like "sit right here" or "not now" or "coke peese" or "this is MINE" or "can I go night night". I love that she calls horses "ha has" and birds "ca cas". I love to see what she has learned so I ask for random things like "will you please get me the broom" (she brings me the broom), "will you please bring me mommys makeup" (she brings me the makeup).
I look forward to spending times with her. I need to learn to enjoy the "two year old" moments instead of dread them and get annoyed by them. This is the end for us, she is our caboose so I need to remind myself of that often. I need to enjoy the fact that she wants to sit on my lap whenever I sit down. I need to put stuff aside and cuddle a little longer, laugh with her a little longer, read to her more often. She is a sponge, I need to help her soak it all up. The world is ready and waiting for her to explore it.
I love that she is a daddys girl. I think every daddy needs one. She has him wrapped around his fingers and noone can remove her. She loves it when he comes home from work (so do I) :) She has to call him a couple times during the day and I am so glad that he takes her calls. It is only for a second but she has to know that he is around. It is so cute.

She loved sitting in her carseat all day today in the living room.
I caught her eating cookie dough out of the Papa Murphys container!
Who did she learn that from? HER DAD!!
Don't you just love her hair? She twists her hair around her finger all day. She doesn't have much hair and she won't leave anything in it, so she pretty much looks like this everyday! :)

Friday, May 14, 2010

Hilary Weeks Ultimate Mom "To Do" List Song

Isn't this the truth? I have seen her several times in concert and this song makes me laugh each time. Expains the hum drum I have been feeling to a T! We could be friends....I know it!

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Wo is Me

February? Really? That is the last time I blogged? That is so crazy and so unlike me. Well, a lot has been unlike me lately. I have had a serious case of the Wo is me. I am not one that likes to whine, or feel sad. But lately, I have had a really hard time being happy with myself. Do any of you just ever sit back and compare yourselves to other people, or compare your blog to other peoples blog, or compare the amount of meals so and so cooks for their family. Or how come she can do that craft, or she can shop that well, or her kids listen, or her house is always clean, or she takes her kids to the park everyday, or they can go on vacations wherever they want.
Well, I have been beating myself up over this since February. I haven't been myself. I feel like I don't fit in where I once did. I feel like I am a maid, chef, therapist, referee, etc....and I have lost my identity. There are days where I think maybe my Heavenly Father made a mistake making me a mom. Sometimes I think I would be better off with a house full of cats...and I am allergic to cats! I haven't been a good friend to those I love the most, mainly because they are the ones I compare myself to the most. Then when you don't succeed like they do, you feel inadequate to be in their presence. I use to be crafty, I used to LOVE to blog, I use to LOVE taking my kids to the park. How can a happy person feel these feelings I feel? I have gotten so wrapped up in being the "perfect" housewife, mom, neighbor, PTO vice president, church member, friend...that I have lost who I really am. I want to BE ME, I want to DRESS how I want, I want to be happy, I want to feel like I won't be judged for things I choose to do.
I am blessed with the GREATEST husband. He has been so patient with me because really this is all stupid crap that is so superficial and lame. He supports ALL my decisions and is there when the chips fall. I love him so much and wish that even his own dad would know of his greatness. He has overcome so much in his life and I want him to know I am SO blessed to be with him forever. He is the light of my life. I am blessed with three great kids that I love and adore. I hope they know how much I truly love them.
So, hopefully I can snap out of this and come back to blogging and show that I too have talent....

Friday, February 12, 2010

The 1980's 2nd Grade Style

Today was the BIG day! Today was 80's day at Red Mountain Elementary. BayLee was a little unsure of this one. She said "Not to be offensive.....but I look ridiculous". As I was doing her hair and getting her dressed she said "How could these people dress this way?". THESE PEOPLE?? Those people are me!!! The 80's were the greatest and here she is.....

I made her pose the 80's pose.....

As I was pegging her pants she was a little concerned.....

Friday, February 5, 2010

Now We Bring You the 1960's 2nd Grader Style

I think I was born in the wrong era because when I found out that BayLee got to dress for the 1960's I was SOOOO excited! We tye died shirts the other day with her very best friend JD and I think they turned out really cute. Mia was not in a photo op mood this morning but her shirt turned out cute as well.
The 60's mean different things to different people. I love the hippy lifestyle. I love the peace sign, I love the free spiritness of it, I love the fashion, I love the hairstyles, I love the VW hippie van, I love Hairspray. Needless to say this day brought happiness. The only day that will be CRAZIER and BIZARRE is the 80's! Oh the fun we will have on that day!!!!

"Peace"

Monday, February 1, 2010

1920's 2nd Grader Style

BayLees Elementary Mascot "Thunder" is taking a travel through time. Each friday the students get to get dressed up for a certain era. Last Friday was the 1920's. I googled 1920 fashion and came up with so many pictures and, well, none of the outfits were appropriate for 2nd graders to wear. It was the era of short flapper dresses. I had two friends call me because they knew I would probably research it, they both had boys so they were pretty lucky. The boys and men just wore suits every day and were very clean cut, handsome looking.
So, I did best with what we had and Bay turned out pretty cute. It made us 10 minutes late for school but it was worth it!
1920's Style
2nd Grade version

Girls vs. Makeup

Every morning Mia sits next to me while I do my makeup and hair. So one day while I was getting ready I let her and BayLee do their own makeup. This is what they came up with.....
I then took Mia to Brandys and forgot to tell her that Mia had played in the makeup. She called me and asked "What happened to Mia? Did someone punch her in the eyes?". Good times, Good times.

Girls Day Out

Bay got invited to the coolest birthday party ever. I don't know how I will ever be able to convince Bay her parties are cool too after going to this one. I was able to go help out and it was a BLAST. There were five girls and the party started out with the BEST cupcakes in town from 25 Main. After they were done with the cupcakes they went to a potter place called Brushfire.
BayLee has always wanted to go there we just haven't ever made it. It is a place where you go and pick out pottery to paint and then they burn it and glaze it. It seriously is the coolest place in town. Forget the arcade, forget the wii, forget the splash pad, forget McDonalds. THIS IS THE PLACE! Bay picked out a cool horse to paint (I tried to convince her to do a plate but I lost). The girls were so silly and giggly.
They then had pizza and ice cream. What a day!

BayLee would live there if I would have let her.



I am thinking I need to do a girls day and go and paint a
dish of my own, eat a cupcake, and have some icecream. Anyone
want to join me?

Mias Big Day

Mia had a great birthday celebration! Turning two is fun. We met up with my mom and dad on Saturday for lunch. We took her to Pirate Island Pizza and she had a good time doing everything but eating (except for the icecream sundae of course). She loved playing on the slide with all the other little kids that were there. Grandma and Grandpa of course showered her with fun presents and we enjoyed their company. We missed Uncle Tony and Aunt Jen and cousins Ajay and Annie but they live too far away.

Logan was too busy earning tickets to stop for a photo op!
The worlds cutest 2 year old.
Bay wanted to play some air hockey with me but we couldn't find the
other paddle. So of course......I used the Bottle! She beat me pretty good.

On her actual birthday we had over 30 people over for dinner and
cake/ice cream. It was a lot of fun to be with family and friends. We are blessed to have so many people that love us and our kiddos. Mia got a car for her birthday and has yet to leave it.
This picture says it all. Adam is fired from taking pictures though.
There aren't any of her in her cute Sunday birthday dress. :(

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Happy 2nd Birthday Mia Sophia

Has it really been two years since our sweet Mia Sophia was born? I can hardly believe that can be possible. It seems like yesterday that her sweet self joined our family. She has brought so much joy into our home and we are having so much fun with her. She is our last baby so we have been holding onto every little thing a little longer and holding each milestone a little tighter to our hearts. It is sad knowing we are done but at the same time I feel relieved (not going to lie). :)
Mia is such a good little toddler so far. She isn't too distructive or too mean. She loves to walk around and just hum and sing in her own little language. She hears music and drops what she is doing to dance a little jig. She loves to play with her friends and loves to play with BayLee and Logan. She loves to be outside and will even escape if the door isn't locked. YIKES! She is her dads little princess and her moms snuggle buddy. She loves to drink out of her sippy or bottle while twirling her hair with her fingers. I think she will do this her whole life. It is the cutest thing to watch.
Mia makes my heart skip a beat when I look at her. She just has so much love and trust, you can see it in her eyes. She is loved by so many people and she in return loves them. She does like to pull hair though.....need to work on that I guess.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIA! WE LOVE YOU!!
Mia day One
Mia One Year (photo taken by Tif)

Easter 2009
Fall 2009
January 2010 (listening to daddys ipod)

Monday, January 11, 2010

Our New Feathered Friend

Santa was kind enough to bring BayLee a pure white dove for Christmas this year. She was so excited to see the bird and she could hardly believe that it was really, truly happening. BayLee has a deep and genuine love for animals. Caring for them is in her blood.
She has named her bird Snowball and everyone has fallen in love with it. Yes, "it" is an "it". The only way to tell the gender of a dove is that the males coo and the females don't. So far no cooing. Is it possible that the Dovers will have a quiet pet for once?

BayLee ALWAYS wears this orange glove when she holds the dove.







There is no doubt about it....this bird will have plenty of attention and love.

Saturday, January 9, 2010

I Declared a RoAd TrIp

We took a great road trip to Zion National Park today. It was such a great day to be together as a family. I have decided that every day Adam has off that we don't have anything planned, we will take a road trip to somewhere we haven't been to for awhile. The kids were great sports and were great traveling buddies.

I can't believe how fast this little guy is growing up. It is happening too quickly.

This was such a sweet moment. We took a million pictures of this moment and this one captured it the very best. I hope that they will always be best of friends.
There was an Ostrich farm right out of Springdale and there was food to feed them.
This one was the biggest and was not afraid to get up close and personal with Logan. I thought
for sure that Ostrich was going to reach through and eat Logan for lunch.
Such a handsome fellar.
I love to walk behind Adam and the kids just to watch them
with eachother. They love it when he is able to spend a day having fun.
They wouldn't have noticed if I would have walked the other way.

Mia wasn't afraid of these HUGE birds, but she won't have anything to
do with Brandys chickens?? Go figure?
It really bugs me that Blogger puts the pictures in opposite of how you select them.
This is the beginning of our road trip. Look how happy he is....
The DS....don't let home without it.
A daddy and his princess.