I am having one of those days where you just want to crawl back into bed, pull the covers over your head, and go to sleep and wake up the next day. There are those days where you sit back and wonder "am I really doing a good job raising my kids"? I just feel like there is something more I can do for my son. I have read self help books, I have prayed until I just can't pray anymore. I have done everything that I can do.....but there has to be more. I want to be his "hero" not his "enemy". I want to "understand" and not "criticize".....I want to be there to "listen" not to "ignore". I know that inside of his active mind, things are going a mile a minute....kind of like a traffic jam. He has all of this energy and he is not sure where to channel it. So therefore he has to take a pair of scissors to brand new blinds and a hammer to the tile. I just think I need to better examine myself and maybe I will be able to understand. But I think I have dug about as far as I can.
I know things could be worse. I know that people have things far worse than this they have to deal with, I have heard that a million times. I admire mothers with a full plate that can still perform top notch. But I have reached the point where I am ok to admit that I am not perfect and I never will be. I am so thankful for Adam and the love that he shows me, he is definatley the best.
So yes, Mandee does have bad days, and this is one of them. So much for the back to bed idea....must continue marching on! Love you guys.